Mental Health (Anxiety and Emetophobia)

Mental health is something I have struggled with for many years, in lots of different shapes and forms. I’m one of the lucky ones as I can pinpoint where my anxiety stems from.

My anxiety stems from emetophobia.

What is emetophobia? I hear you ask. To put it simply, emetophobia is a fear of vomiting. This is usually where some smarty pants pipes up with ‘well nobody likes being sick’. No Mr Smarty Pants, nobody does like it but most people don’t spend everyday of their lives in fear that they will be sick.

A month ago I was struck down by the dreaded norovirus. I originally thought I was just having a panic attack and because of that I was feeling ill – little did I know that the rest of my family were being hit one by one. They purposely kept the news from me to protect me. I can honestly say that it was the worst night of my life and I do not know what I would have done without my partner there to support me. Little did I know that particular night was the easiest part. As the days followed I noticed my anxiety begin to creep up on me to the point where last weekend I didn’t want to leave the house.

I’m currently self-employed and work from home so I have very little motivation to get out everyday and lack a supportive family to help me. My mum also suffers severely with emetophobia and because of this has put me in quarantine. I’ve found it extra difficult without having my mum there, especially as she truly understands how I feel.

I have been making an effort to get myself out of the house even if I only go for a walk during my lunch break. I am proud of how I am dealing with this considering the last time I was sick was when I was 11 years old. After this particular episode I became agoraphobic and was barely eating.

I hope that one day I can look back on this period of my life and see how it made me a stronger person. For now I know there is a long road ahead of me to build myself back up.

My confidence is shattered, my nerves all over the place and my motivation to help myself is almost non-existent. I know I must carry on though, the only way is to keep fighting back. At the moment it feels like one knock back after the other – I’m really trying to believe it’s all for a cause and one day I will understand.

So here’s to the day I finally understand why life made me such a strong person. Never worry about speaking out about your mental health. You can always pop a message below and I’ll happily have a chat 🙂

XOXO

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18 thoughts on “Mental Health (Anxiety and Emetophobia)

  1. Oh god, your poor thing! I’m writing this a month after you wrote this and I hope that things are much better. One of my sons suffers periodically from anxiety and it’s not a pretty thing to watch him go through.

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    1. Thank you! Things have improved slightly ☺️ Sorry to hear about your son, I know from my family that having to watch someone go through it can be heartbreaking at times. Anxiety is horrible to suffer from but we have to be strong and find our ways of coping!

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  2. I severely suffer from emetophobia, I relate to what you’ve written so much and my anxiety also stems from it. I suffer everyday, if I’ve heard someone’s been sick. I immediately panic and get anxious and don’t want to leave the house. Would be great if we could speak further because I’d love to know more about how you cope and maybe we can exchange tips. all my love, L x

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    1. It such a difficult phobia to live with isn’t it, it affects so many different areas of your life! Would love to have a chat with you, what’s the best way to contact you? x

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  3. Just want to say I love you and am proud of how strong you are and everyone who suffers from this dreadful, vile phobia or indeed any type of mental health problems, we have to be stronger then others as we carry this around with us 24/7. We will get through it. You will have happier times to look forward to in the future I promise XXXX

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  4. Hi Liz, was sorry to hear that you had all been so poorly ! Is such an awful thing and scares the sh.. out of me lol. Have to push myself to do things some times but keep trying and smile 🙂 . Take care honey x Sarah

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  5. That sounds intense. Thanks for mentioning all the supportive factors that can make it easier. And thanks for being bold enough to say all this. “Name it to tame it” – once it’s not a secret it can’t be so much of a secret shame.

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