Does anyone else feel their blood pressure rising over silly little daily tasks? If given the option then I avoid driving because I know that it’s not worth how worked up I’ll get. I’ve been driving now for over 7 years and I know in that time people’s quality of driving has deteriorated. I also seem to attract all these terrible drivers which creates additional unnecessary stress for me.
I know that my stressy-ness is my anxiety transferring itself but I don’t seem to be able to shake it.
Today I had put a lot of pressure on myself to go out and it backfired. I woke up feeling down and didn’t want to leave my bed, let alone the house. I knew I had to and eventually we decided to just pop to a couple of shops. I have a gift card for Home Sense/ TkMaxx so we thought the lure of shopping might improve my mood.
I declined to drive as I’m always worried that if I’m anxious my mind won’t 100% be on the driving. As we drove through one of the towns we stopped at a Zebra crossing. I was feeling particularly anxious by now but in addition to this my pet peeve is people who don’t thank you at a zebra crossing.
Two families crossed, neither of which bothered to thank us. So in the anxious-stressy mood that I was in I decided to shout at them, (from the safety of the car… obviously) about what a wonderful example they were setting for their children. My partner rolled his eyes and said one of these days I was going to wind up getting him punched.
I sat there and I knew it wasn’t me. Well, it was me in the sense that I am known for shouting at people who fail to thank. I also enjoy clapping at them and giving them a thumbs up. Just call me the manners police.
The feeling that I was experiencing wasn’t me, or at least not the me I want to be. Why was I so angry and wound up over people not thanking us at a zebra crossing? Yes it’s rude, yes it’s setting a bad example to their children, but why was I taking it so personally?
My anxiety was transferring itself.
All in all it was a rubbish day, but I’ll update you more on that next week on my weekly anxiety weekend round up (try saying that after a few drinks). How do you cope with your anxiety transferring onto different aspects of your life?