I’ll be 25 at the end of June and I was expecting to receive my letter inviting me to go for a cervical screening/smear test. However, the letter arrived last week – a lot earlier than I was expecting it to. If you read my blog you will know how much I am suffering with my anxiety at the moment. I can’t even bring myself to book a normal doctors appointment, let alone a smear test.
I know how important the test is and in no way want to avoid having one but anxiety-wise I don’t feel in a place to go for the test at the moment. I thought I would set myself the deadline of my 25th birthday in hope that my anxiety has improved and I feel more able to approach the appointment. I know that even if it hasn’t improved I need to go ahead and book the appointment anyway.
I’ve done a lot of research and watched videos regarding the procedure and whilst I know it won’t be a pleasant experience it’s not that that’s preventing me. I find it difficult even leaving my house to go for a walk and so this appointment would be a big deal and would involve extra anxiety provoking factors.
I think it’s a good idea to set myself the goal of my 25th birthday as I think it will also give me something to work towards in terms of improving my anxiety. This has also reminded me that my dentist have been sending me reminders to book in for an appointment. Again, this is not something I feel that I am in a place to tackle right now and so I think I might find a contact email address to see whether I can postpone my appointment. I know it’s not healthy to put important appointments off but this is the first time in my life I have felt I couldn’t tackle them and so I am going to pander to my anxiety and take smaller steps.
In the meantime, I would be grateful if you could share your own experiences with me, especially if you deal with anxiety on a daily basis and how you overcame this to have the test. I will keep you updated on my journey!