Sorry that this weekend update is a little late this week. Usually I try to get this up on a Monday but I wanted to include my Monday in this post. Altogether it has been a very positive weekend (and Monday). I’m not sure whether it’s just me being a pessimist or if it’s anxiety related but when things go well I can’t help but think ‘what’s going to go wrong now?’ I’m trying to get out of this mindset though and generally approach life in a positive manner. However, last time I thought to myself ‘I feel like me again’ I was struck down with norovirus the following day. Anyway, here’s what I got up to this weekend and how my anxiety was.
Saturday 9th February –
I woke up on Saturday feeling a little more positive about life in general and my anxiety. I think that blogging has given be a distraction from my anxiety and has helped me to begin to tackle it. On Saturday my boyfriend was working and so my parents came over to keep me company. We popped into town and had a little walk around. I was a little on edge but tried to ignore it. I made it through about half an hour in town and then a quick trip to Tesco. The fact that I hadn’t had a panic attack whilst out was a huge achievement for me and I felt really proud of myself.
I saw this little beauty in Tesco. I’m a Marmite lover, however it’s not gluten free and so have not been able to have any for over a year now. Tesco do a yeast extract spread which appears to be gluten free and so I have been using that instead. Not sure I would want this for Valentine’s Day, even as a marmite lover.
I’ve mentioned it before but my mum is a photographer. Whilst in town she spotted this atrocious blouse and bought it so that we could do some Victorian themed pictures. Having been blowing my nose all week the last thing I felt like was having my picture taken, but my mum was not taking no for an answer.
And here is the final picture! I’m not a fan of myself in the picture but I can see the look my mum was going for.
When my boyfriend got back from work we drove over to his mum’s and cooked dinner for when she got home from work. We had a nice couple of hours there. I was proud of myself for eating somewhere other than my house and not having a panic attack. Overall, I felt like Saturday was a very positive day for my anxiety and it made me feel incredibly happy.
Sunday 10th February –
Sunday was not quite as successful as Saturday. I woke up feeling a little bit wobbly with my anxiety and so we made plans with this in mind. We popped to a local shopping centre as I wanted to look for some new bedding.
We were unsuccessful in finding bedding but did get some face cream, mouth wash and tissues – how exciting! These travel tissues are brilliant for popping in your handbag when you have a cold.
For dinner we tried out M&S’s new gluten free macaroni cheese. It was amazing!! I had accepted that macaroni cheese was a thing of the past but now my world has been changed. My boyfriend had it too and agreed that you would not have known that it was gluten free. I’ve already gone out and bought another one. It’s also nice to sometimes be able to grab something rather than cooking from scratch.
Monday 11th February –
Usually I end my weekend updates on a Sunday night, however I felt like since this was a positive update and the positivity continued into Monday I would share it with you. My nan and I popped to our local shopping mall, Bluewater. We had nothing to get which took the pressure off and I knew that at any moment I could leave.
I barely felt any anxiety during our trip. We had a couple of hours there and even managed to sit down and have a coffee. I’ve not been able to sit and have a coffee since I had the norovirus last October so this was a huge achievement for me. It felt amazing to go out for a few hours and to feel ‘normal’.
I hope everyone else has had a good weekend!
How do you keep positive?