Every month I set myself some goals to help with my anxiety and depression. Since starting these goals I have noticed a huge improvement in my mental health. Yes, there have been some steps back but generally I am in a much better place.
You can read about my previous months here:
May update – coming soon
This month includes a huge goal and so I have kept the others relatively simple.
Have lunch out – If you’re a regular reader you will know that one of the things my anxiety prevents me from doing is eating out. Before my anxiety flared up I loved going out for a meal – it was a real treat not to have to cook! It’s something that I want to get back to being able to do as it really is preventing me from doing a number of things. I’ve been eating in food courts a lot but I want to take the next step and try some coffee shops. I don’t quite feel ready to eat somewhere where you order your foot and sit and wait but I want to try the more formal setting of somewhere like Prett where you get your food immediately but you still sit and eat there with others.
Would anyone be interested in me doing a post about why my anxiety makes eating out difficult?
Go out on my own – You will have seen this particular goal pop up a lot. There was once a time where I was very happy nipping out on my own but these days it feels very daunting. I don’t want to always feel like I need someone accompany me in case I have a little break down in public. Because of this I am slowly trying to go out on my own to get use to it and to build up my own confidence. This is a goal that you will continue to see popping up as I know it’s going to take a lot of time and effort to feel confident enough to be in my own company.
Have a coffee sat in a cafe – This goal is similar to the above goal of eating out. A few months ago I was unable to even get a take-away coffee but now I’m back to loving my sugary caffeine fix. I want to build on this success and sit in a cafe and have a coffee. In regards to this goal I would prefer to sit in an actual cafe where you have to sit and wait for your drinks, rather than stand and collect it then sit down. I’m slowly adding more pressure into situations in which I now feel somewhat comfortable.
See a friend – I have previously set myself this goal and although it caused me a lot of anxiety I met up with an old friend and had a lovely time. It is something that I want to continue making an effort to do. I’m very happy in my own little bubble with the company of people that I see most days but I want to push myself to continue making plans with others that are outside of my comfort zone. Whether I achieve this goal this month greatly depends on whether my schedule matches up with others. I’ll let you know how it goes!
Go abroad – This is the big goal that I talked about at the start of this post. At Christmas we booked our summer holiday to Spain. My grandparents have a holiday villa out there and I’ve been visiting since I was in single digits. Thankfully it’s a home from home for me which somewhat relieves the pressure. I’m scared at the idea of catching a flight, of being surrounding by so many people in the airport and feeling trapped. The actual flight itself makes me anxious, if I freak out there’s so many people to see. The idea of being in Spain is also causing me anxiety, I don’t know how I’m going to react being so far from home. We’re hoping to put up a blow-up pool at the villa so that we don’t feel we have to go out every day. Despite what I’ve said I am also very excited at the prospect of a holiday. Once I’m there I I’ll be fine, I can make it work for my anxiety, however it’s the flight that I am the most anxious about. I’ll definitely be doing a separate post on our holiday to let you know in detail how it went.
What are your goals for this month?