I had a lovely week away at the end of June but the travelling and being away from home made me feel anxious. I was looking forward to a quiet week this week to get myself back on track and catch up on everything.
Fate, however, had other plans.
Saturday 29th June –
Saturday morning was horrible. We were flying home from Spain and I honestly didn’t think I would be able to make it. I’ll tell you more about that in a separate post on Friday.
Eventually we did make it home and the rest of the day was quite nice. We got home from the airport at about 2pm, had some lunch, unpacked and then went round to my boyfriend’s mum for dinner. Somehow I made it through the day and was incredibly grateful to get into bed at the end of the day.
Sunday 30th June –
It was actually my birthday today – I turned 25! I had been so focused on getting home from Spain the day before that I didn’t want to make too many plans. I had a quiet day with my family. In the morning I popped out with my mum and dad for a little wander around some shops and we got a coffee. We then had some lunch followed by a gluten free cheesecake in place of a birthday cake.
The afternoon was spent with the rest of my family and finished with a bbq. I felt a little anxious all day which upset me, I had hoped that for one day I might feel okay. I guess birthdays just aren’t very exciting as you grow up.
I was completely stuck what to wear and so I chose this old Topshop dress.
Monday 1st July –
Today was absolutely horrific. I spent most of the day making various phone calls and being put on hold. In the afternoon I had a doctors appointment which I was anxious about all day. Eventually the time to leave rolled around and with my anxiety in tow I left for my appointment.
I had the most awful experience.
I wrote a post about it, which you can read here. I spent most of the afternoon and evening then crying and feeling very sorry for myself.
I opted for comfort to go to my doctor’s appointment and wore this plain black top from H&M, polka dot trousers from Topshop and a cardigan from Fat Face.
Tuesday 2nd July –
I popped over to see my mum today, we had a little catch up and popped into town to run some errands. I was rather happy as I felt significantly less anxious than I usually do when we pop into town. I’m hoping this is an improvement that will stick around and I can continue to work on.
When we got back from town I had some lunch and then headed home to get on with some work.
I wore the same Topshop trousers from yesterday and a cropped top from Primark.
It’s a rather boring week this week as I’m catching up with everything. It was suppose to be a quiet stress free week, however it is turning into the complete opposite.
Wednesday 3rd July –
I was still feeling really upset today and just wanted to get away from everything for a while. I drove over to my mum and we popped out. We went to look at some bathroom tiles and then had a little walk round a garden centre.
I wore my polka dot jumpsuit from River Island and I put my faux suede jacket from Zara on when we popped out in the afternoon.
The day was so nice that neither of us could bare to spend the afternoon in and so we popped back out in the afternoon for a little walk around a village. I was feeling much better in the afternoon, my anxiety was almost non-existent. We got to walk around the shops without me having to leave and I even got a coffee to take away.
It was a really nice way to spend a sunny afternoon.
Thursday 4th July –
I still can’t shake the feeling from my doctor’s appointment at the beginning of the week. I haven’t felt this sad about life for months now. I’m annoyed that such a naive Doctor has had such an impact on my mental health this week but I just can’t seem to shake the feeling.
I decided to have a quiet day at home today (well as quiet as can be expected with my little cousins round). They popped out for an hour in the afternoon and I enjoyed a quiet moment reading my book in the garden – until my phone went. I have a wellness discovery session next week. I’ve no idea what it entails but after feeling like this all week I’m desperate for any kind of improvement so we’ll see what it has to offer.
I was feeling restless in the evening and so after dinner my boyfriend and I popped to a local village for a walk. It wasn’t quite as relaxing as I had hoped as I’d eaten way too much and so walking was not particularly comfortable.
I wore my patterned trousers from Uniqlo with my stripy top from Zara.
Friday 5th July –
Friday I managed to get myself somewhat into the working zone and spent most of the day sat at my desk typing away. I was still feeling pretty rubbish but I pushed it to the side as much as possible and just got through the day by completing one task at a time.
I had planned on popping out Friday evening but by the end of the day my mood hadn’t improved and to make matters worse my knees were aching (not quite sure why but I do occasionally get it).
I wore a black crop top from Primark and these polka dot trousers from H&M.
Apparently I was really enjoying polka dots this week! haha
What’s everyone been up to?