This week was a huge improvement on last week! I actually felt a little more in control of my life and managed to get out a few times.
I hope you all had a lovely week too! Drop me a comment at the end of the post and let me know what you got up to.
Monday 19th August –
If you read my little post at the start of last week then you will know that I was quite ill for most of the week (you can read it here). Unfortunately what started out as a cold has turned into a sinus infection. I’ve had it for over a week now and am feeling pretty run down. I tend to wake up feeling not too bad but by around 4pm my head is pounding, my eyes sting and all I want to do is go to bed and sleep. I’m trying to just carry on through it though as the last time I had a sinus infection I was in University and it lasted for about 2 months – yay! Hopefully this one is shorter (or I could just go to the doctors…)
I decided to make the most of not feeling too bad this morning and I popped to Sainsburys with my nan. I’m feeling more anxious than normal (who knew that was possible?!) where I’m not 100% and so we didn’t stay out for long and stayed close to home. We had a little wander round and then came home to have some lunch. I decided to still pop out for my walk as there was a brief break between the rain. This was a terrible decision, half way through my walk it started really pouring down. I tried to shelter under some trees but it wasn’t really doing much. Typically, I was enjoying being out of the house, however I decided that getting wet and cold with a sinus infection probably wasn’t the best of ideas and so I went home.
I got a few bits done this afternoon in between bouts of a thumping headache. By about 4pm I gave up work for the day and tried to have some down time.
I’m hoping by the end of the week I can say that this headache has gone!
Tuesday 20th August –
I don’t want to speak too soon but I think I’m finally starting to feel better today! I haven’t needed any medication or nose sprays and my sinuses feel the best they have in a couple of weeks. Fingers crossed it’s onwards and upwards from here!
Today was my brother’s birthday. We popped over and had some lunch with him. My little cousins were round visiting when we got there, however I didn’t quite feel up to climbing all over the swings and slides and so I just sat and watched. It was nice to catch up with my brother as I haven’t seen him much since he got back from America. It was a quiet day but still nice to catch up with everyone. As we were only over at my parent’s my anxiety was okay, which meant I enjoyed the day even more.
Wednesday 21st August –
I woke up still with this sinus headache but it’s slowly getting better. I had some work to do this morning with a tight deadline and so I forced myself to sit and get it done. By the time I was finished my head was really hurting and my eyes were stinging. I decided enough was enough and that I should probably stay away from my laptop screen for the remainder of the day.
I usually go for a walk at lunch time and my boyfriend calls, however today he rang whilst I was still working. I decided that I didn’t want to be cooped up indoors all afternoon and so I went for a little walk to our local lakes. If you’ve been reading my blog posts for a while you will know that this is a big deal for me to go for a walk on my own without distracting myself with my phone. I walked around for a while and then sat on a bench for 15 minutes and enjoyed the sun. It was a relaxing experience and it put me in a good mood to get home and spend half an hour on hold to the doctor’s surgery!
Thursday 22nd August –
I think today has probably been one of the best days I’ve had for a while and the busiest! I was suppose to be picking a prescription up from the doctors, however my mum popped in for me, which was a nice surprise! Since she had run my errand for me we decided to just pop to a couple of shops and have a wander round (Only Currys and Homebase – not very exciting). Mum had plans for the afternoon and so she dropped me back home and went off. I actually had plans for the afternoon too! (Who am I?!)
A few days ago my friend text me to say she would be driving past mine on her way back from work today and asked if I was around. My anxiety wanted to say no and to stop myself from potentially having a panic, however I refused to listen to it and told her it would be lovely to see her. I was anxious but mostly excited to get out and do something ‘normal’. As the time approached I was a little anxious but nowhere near as bad as I thought I would be. We popped into town for about an hour and a half and I had a lovely time. We grabbed a coffee and walked around town with it – I’m not sure I’m quite ready to just sit down and chat at this point. It was so nice to feel like the old me again. I’m definitely going to make more of an effort to do stuff that the old me would have jumped at the chance to do.
On a side note I thought I would insert a little picture of me since it’s the most effort I’ve put into my appearance for a while. It upsets me looking at pictures these days as I feel like you can see how unhappy I am with my mental health. I flick through old pictures and I just look happy – maybe it’s just because I was younger?
Friday 23rd August –
I spent Friday with my mum and brother, we popped into town in the morning as my brother had some bits to send back. He’s moving to uni in a couple of weeks and so there’s been lots of online orders arriving! We didn’t spend long in town and then headed back home to sit out in the sun.
I didn’t feel amazing today, I could have done with a quiet day at home, however my little cousins were round again (they’re also round every Wednesday and Thursday) and I felt like getting away from the chaos of children. The day passed by rather slowly and I was grateful to go to bed that evening for a new day to begin.