I thought now would be a good time to write another mental health check in. After my appointment with the mental health nurse (you can read about it here) I have realised I need to change my outlook on life. I’m still absolutely amazed at how an hour chat the MH nurse has completely changed how I view my mental health problems.
During my appointment the nurse spoke to me about how important it is to enjoy my life and not to just focus on getting better. I have since had somewhat of a revelation during which I realised that I have been solely focused on my recovery rather than just enjoying my life. My old mindset was so focused on the end goal and if I enjoyed something then it was an added bonus on my road to recovery. Since my appointment I have realised that I need to focus on being happy and my recovery must taken second place.
*I’d like to apologise in advance for how rambly this post will probably come across. I try to keep these posts very raw and just pour my thoughts out onto the page*
How have I approached this?
Usually I would force myself to do things because I thought in the long-term it would help my anxiety. I’ve now stopped doing that, the only reason I push myself into doing something is because I want to. I’ve found myself still taking steps to improving my anxiety and at the same time I’ve been in a better place to take those steps.
Sometimes when out and I feel my anxiety rising I prevent myself from using my safeguards to make the situation easier for myself. However, since my appointment I’ve realised that if by using a safeguard or giving into my anxiety I can enjoy my time out and about then it’s worth it. I guess you can compare the situation to quality over quantity. Previously I’ve been focusing on how many times I can go out, rather than enjoying my time out. I’ve been putting too much pressure on myself to be okay without taking the necessary steps to get to that point.
I’m going to focus on enjoying every day and allow my recovery from my severe anxiety to naturally happen alongside my everyday life.
Slowing down –
Another element of my anxiety is that I’m constantly on the go and feel as though I need to do as much as possible every day. This aspect hasn’t been as easy to tackle and I’m not necessarily sure it’s something that I want to change about myself. However, I would like to be able to sometimes just sit back and relax without worrying about what I’m doing next. I’m aiming for a balance between being efficient and relaxing. I’ll let you know how I get on !
I guess I’ve just reached another stage in my recovery – acceptance. I’ve finally accepted that this anxiety is a part of me for the time being and I’m going to live with it until I can control it.
Do you find that your outlook on life impacts on your mental health?